"Things happen for a reason"

Yeah right. Then what is the reason behind the year that was and the year that is?

Let's begin with 2006: I had things going great--i had a job that I love and i had someone whom I love. I had a flourishing love life most people envy. We didn't have all the riches in the world but we can afford simple getaways and sometimes lavish treats. We spend quality time with both families. Perfect. Of course after nearly five years, there were already pangs of monotony and longing for excitement. But that was that. No biggie. It's normal for every couple.

At least that's what I thought.

Twists and turns were constantly shaking the foundation that before the year ended it crashed. More like imploded. Truly unexpected. Every thing soon after was a blur. All I could think of is ending the year and looking forward to the new one...in hopes of turning a new leaf altogether.

So at the stroke of midnight, I felt hope that life can still be better. It's already 2007. A sigh of relief. A breath of fresh air. A soothing hug and the look of love. That the past year became a huge sign from above--I should learn from those twists and turns and things will be alright. Maybe that was the "reason."

At least that's what I thought.

It's still 2007. And you guessed it right--things are not better. Hope is thinning out. My sighs are not those of relief. I breathe all but fresh air. And the hugs I must say are still soothing but only to compensate for the lack (and no longer the look) of love. No matter which angle I choose, I still cannot grasp the "reason."