"Easier Said Than Done"
Why is it that I never learn? Could it be that I still try to believe that I'm living in a fairy tale world full of sugar-coated dreams? I don't think so for I've been hurt a lot of times...but I'm not saying that I haven't hurt anyone before. Again and again, I fall for the same trap created by Expectation. If you ask me, one should not expect for it would end up causing more pain if it would yield an unfavorable result; you've probably heard me give that advice to a bunch of people.
I'm not perfect...but then again nobody is.
I'm now beginning to wonder what is wrong with me. I preach "Hope for the best...Expect the worst." Then again, why do I continuously find myself getting caught in the web of false hope and pretension? Maybe I'm not that strong a believer as I thought I am. It's as if I'm digging a hole too deep for me to climb out of -- a pit that is so dark and lonely. I tried to seek refuge...but I failed miserably. It was difficult to swallow my pride despite the great hurt I was feeling; I managed to...thinking that this was the solution. Just when I was starting to see a ray of light, everything caved in on me. Little did I know that my effort with good intention would turn out to be something I would regret doing.
It hurts...it really does.
I am in great conflict with myself. It's about time to straighten my priorities, align my principles with my actions, be assertive. With this being said...again, I am conflicting for I am still dwelling on the harsh reality of things. I must admit...I cannot do this alone; it's too heavy a burden for me to carry. I am scared.
An angel is what I need to break my fall...
7 Comments:
*big hug* :D
hey girl... don't be so glum. Things will get on the brighter side. it can't always be at the bottom of the scale. you need balance. maybe this is the moment when things will become balanced. just having these though bubbles pass my head. hehehe. luv you! be strong! - mahal
You ARE the angel you've been looking for all your life, sweetie :) you're right, it IS very painful to expect, to need other people. that's because all you really need is yourself. it's the hardest lesson we'll ever learn, and we've all just barely scratched the surface of it. but in the end, if you don't go within, you go without.
it will always get better, sweetheart :) sometimes, when things are falling apart, they are actually falling into place.
uy you sound so sad :(
i think that even if we get hurt over and over again, we should never give up hope.basta, things will look better in due time. mark my words :)
keep your chin up girl!
Thanks for uplifting my spirits. I really need a lot of support and good company nowadays. The thing that bothers me is I know what I need to do...I just can't carry it out just yet...I'm still in a rut. But you know what, since I wrote that post, I'm feeling a bit better. Don't worry...I'll be back to the "kalog" Aia soon. Luv yah, too!
ey, you have a blog na! KEWLNESS! i'll add you to my blogroll, thankx for adfingmy to your links. btw, i just set up a webring, so feel free to join and invite your friends as well. It's on my blog.
You sound rather confused or distressed my dear. is everything alright? Would this be related to pao? whells, im here if you need me, you know that! - flirtmate (*wink*)
The Artful Dodger has finally noticed me! I have been posting comments on his site anonymously, trying to see if he will get that it's just me!
Well, flirtmate (and that's all there is to it!), I know you can read me well and I'm glad to know that you'll be at my side if for some reason I lose my mind! Thanks, dude! (",)
of course i knew it was you! AKO pa! hehe, i just didnt know you had a blog up already! =)rest assured i got your back girl, you know where to find me if you need anything =)
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